people got me questioning where is the love ?

they say :

And to discriminate only generates hate and if you hate you're bound to get irate.

Madness is what you demonstrate and that exactly how anger works and operates.

You got to have love just to set it straight, take control of your mind and meditate.

Let your soul gravitate to the l.o.v.e

So ask your self :

Is the loving really gone? so i can ask myself really what is going wrong with the world

that we living in, people keep on giving in, making wrong decisions only visions of them

living and not respecting each other ...

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder as I'm getting older

most of us only care about money making

selfishness got us following the wrong directions

wrong information always shown by the media

negative images is the main criteria

infecting their young minds faster than bacteria

What ever happened to :

The values of humanity, to the fairness and equality .

Instead of spreading love were spreading anomosity

Lack of understanding leading us away fom UNITY .

IF YOU NEVER KNOW TRUTH THEN YOU NEVER KNOW LOVE.

we only got ONE world.

“Funny thing, your brain,
how it always functions on one
level or another. How, even stuck in
some sort of subconcious limbo, it works
your lungs, your muscle twitches, your heart,
in fact, in symphony with your heart, allowing it
to feel love. Pain. Jealousy. Guilt. I wonder if it’s the
same for people, lost in comas. Is there really such a thing.”

—	Crank By Ellen Hopkins

That Obscure Object...

if your heart is really broken you would be dead, so SHUT UP!

whats wrong with the world mama !?

I think the whole world is addicted to the drama

only attracted to the things that bring you trauma

One Glance From Your Eyes And IM

CAPTIVATED :]

party everyday :)

*DAY AND NIGHT

*IMMA BE SPREADING MY WINGS

*IMMA BE DOIN MY THANG

imma BE ;]

Trust me. Im not Like Most Girls !!

IMMA BE SHAKIN MY HIPS

YOU GONNA BE LICKIN YO LIPS

IMMA BE TAKEN DEM PICS LOOKIN

ALL FLY AND SHITT

IMMA BE THE FLYEST CHICK

my super sweet sixteen :)

* take MY picture HOLLYWOOD :]

the pics are few i know, sorry , but i CANT seem to find the wire for the other camera...

okay, so im watching the grammy awards 2010 and writing this post and beyonce just got "best song of the year" single ladies.

and now green day is preforming 21 guns! hahehu!

okay lets get down to business!

last night was ella's birthday party! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE :]

and and and i ate CAKE! lol.

*lose da crap!

so i promised you guys i'll post about my birthday! so LETS DO THIS BAYBEY!

okay, so my birthday party was last week friday 22 January and im SIXTEEN! <3

so went to school and shit and shit , we finish school early on fridays! we get out 12.30. awesome shit!

okay thennn! me, sabrina and yasmin went to farahin's house cause all the party things were there! then we got ready .. so around 4.30 Sami and Hanafee picked us up and we went boom boom paw! okay well not really! so anyways the place was awesome shit! da pool was hot :) and the view too!

so then it was raining like crazie .. and i was worried. about all types of things were running through my mind. like wat if people dont show up, what if the rain doesnt stop , what if da party sucks , what if.. what if ..what if i dont look HOT! :) :)

so few mins later the rain was better :) then we started blowing up ballons to put them in the pool so the place would look colourful . so i was placing the baloons carefully and all of a sudden "SLIP" then "BLOOP" - i fell in da pool.. thank god i wasnt wearing my party dress! but anywho sabrina and yasmin were there but they couldnt be bothered they were just laughing including the security guard, i was soo pist!

so when we placed all the balloons UNFORTUNATELY the "wind" blew all the ballons off! WTF!

that got me even more pist! So i was like you know what guys fuck it and lets place the junks in the table and go get ready cause it was 5.40 and the party starts at 6.00 pm so then me and sabrina went to get dress and my lovelys yasmin and farahin put the stuff! and my sisters were late with everything! the barbarbecue stuff ,the music .. and sami and hanafee were helping bring the people to the party cause a few didnt really get the place! soo yeah! anywho then i called up my sisters and asked them to come already with the stuff! but they were not anywhere near the place! so they asked their friends to put up the music and do the barbecuing :) so things got better .. then alotta people started coming! AND things got wayyy better! around 50 people showed up to my party :) then my sisters finally showed up so that got me feelin better! then the music started and everyone was around chillin ,eating, dancing and throwing each other into the pool :) i got thrown into the pool :| my dresss :( but wateve i was gna jump in the end anyways! haha :]

sooo we sang me birthdaysong :) :) and i cut THE CAKE :] haha! sooo then it was around 10.pm so basically the guards said no jumping into the pool anymore cause its 10.00pm but non of us listened so when it was 11.00pm the guard came and said party over cause we were not supose to jump into the pool after 10.00pm but then again NON of us listened and continued partying! :)

I HAD THE BEST SWEET SIXTEEN EVAAA :]

and i wana THANK all of you people who came and for all the awesome Prezzies i got! YA'LL ROCK :]

ASK WHY :]

MEET PIXIE <3

L.O.V.E

IM HAVING FUN MENICURING AND PEDICURING MY SISTERS NAILS :]

FUCKYEAHPRETTYNAILS!

tearing a picture from a book and stepping on is the most CHILDISH and GAYISH shit ever!

seriusly..

if you dont back the Fuck up i'll come and make you back the fuck up and shove something up your ass to show you the REAL world.

Dont get on my last nerves!

chaww BITCH!

i'll blog soon and upload my sweet sixteen pics soon :) very busyyy!

xoxo

*watya think bout that !?

BE

C O U R A G E O U S

A N D

V U L N E R A B L E

yes, we got real shitt!

*And that's why I'm not them!

because I CAN.

i just became a Fan of " when i turn off the lights downstairs, i RUN LIKE HELL" on facebook!

and that's soo true!

okay anyways today's Friday so we finish school early! AWESOME eyh!?

we have a hell lotta new teachers! and they are...

like we can do any shitt we want yo.

well accept for accounting,commerce and economics! which sux BIG!

but the rest of the teachers are...

okay! umm .. today i got to school on time :] and saw Yasmin, Mel and amirah!

then then then we went to the field and met Kim and shit happened....

assembly was useless as usual.. Ayin didn't show up and neither did yae ji :(! and we had English first period-GO nandayyy!

okay moving onn! BLAH BLAH BLAH then we had break and Singh pulled me and Kim out to do community service and i didn't do shit! i didn't even come late.. lucky jojo got out of the hook!

okay anyways! few days back i was thinking about johnny bravo ..random much i know! but all of a sudden i found my self thinking of johnny bravo

check the packs! mann im pretty :]:]

Right now na na na na I'm harking to buy you a drank cause Kimmy got it in my system!

AND now im signin outta hea ..

xx

You charming me boy

Yeah boy, you’re charming me

Just like this beat is gonna do

on the radio

;

OH, Behave.

take away the sensation in side, give me Novocaine!

# Even the best falls down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

out of the doubts that fills your mind

i somehow find you and i collide.

*the spaces that's in between insane and insecure...

Ready for the most random questions known to quiz history?
bring ittt onn!

Last person you showered naked with?
myselfff :D

Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
I'm sure Sabrina and Amina knows better than that!

What happened last time you got drunk?
I'M CLEAN!

Have you taken off someone’s pants recently?
no?

Do you bite your toe nails?
thats just disgusting.
occasionaly, NO SICKO

If someone said to you “nice ass” you say?
Get that alot, thnx:)

Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like, what do you do?
what can be done.

Last thing you said out loud?
HOW DOES SHE KNOWWWWW YOU LOVE HER, HOW DOES SHE KNOWWWW YOU DO.. :)

Last time you laughed your head off?
Last night, when i was on the phone with my sister sara :]

What do you want right this second?
FOOD !!

How are you sitting?
up straight ;) lol

Can I have your number?
1-800 KISS MY ASS

Your mood?
normal.

Do certain alcohols make you have different emotions and what?
for the last time-IM CLEAN!

If you could change one thing this year about your life would you?
gradess

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
sarah :)

Did you sleep alone last night?

ummm..

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

Mr. Question Mark :)

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
YES!

Do you find piercings attractive?
depends where they are...

What were you doing last night at midnight?
TEXTING KIM.

Waiting for something?
for abdu to FINALLY call!

Was yesterday terrible?
it was wokay:)

Did you accept or reject your last friend request?
i just leave them there mostly

Whats your favorite number?
1 5 7 :)

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
not really! but i want a tattoo - a playboy tattoo by the neck :]*oohh pweettyyy!

Who is your last received call from?
unknown number, but it was muadh speaking :D

How many cigarettes have you smoked today?
i dont smoke :)

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
no.

Do you like potato chips?
very much

Do you give out second chances way to easily?
yess-sabrina knows very well!

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
:):):)

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
sleeping..

What did you do last night?
shopping with mummy :D

Explain why you last threw up?
i didn't throw up in years.

Hot tea or Iced tea?
BOTH!

Last person you spoke to?
MUMMY<3>

Are you ticklish?
extremelyyy

Are your ears pierced?
yeap.

Bar soap or body wash?
body shop body wash!

Do you chew on your straws?
occasionally

What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
chocolate.- that explains the ass people :]

What is something you say a lot?
dont talk SHITT!- *Abdu will kill :o

Do you think you are pretty?
i'll leave that one to you ;] :]

What are you doing tonight?
sabrina's sleeping over so probably watch movies, chit chat, camwhore with Sami or manicure and pedicure! or maybe all :D

What was your last missed call?
Sarah :]

Do you have a nickname?
Fisah :)

What are you listening to?
nothing...

Is there anyone you like right now?
other than edward !?.. nahh

Did you cry today?
nop!

Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
tamiii :)

Number of pillows you sleep with?
2

Can you play pool?
badlyy

What last made you laugh?
last night when helping Sami pick and out fit for his outing! without me he would seriously look like CRAP!

What were you doing last night around 3 am?
sleeppinngg

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
Robert Pattinson please

Have you ever slapped someone?
yepppp

What was the last thing you drank?
zapple-im starting to lovee that soda!

Do you think there are circumstances when it’s okay to wait for someone?
i'll let ray answer that one :]

Do you ever miss your past?
DUH!

Is it possible to be single and happy?
OBVIOUSLY!

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
like i said : forgive BUT never forget!

Do you prefer ily, or i love you?
any of em. doesn't really matter!

Who’s car were you in last?
dad's

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
OLDER!

Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?
i don't predict the future yaww!

Have you ever been so embarrassed that you cried?

no, and i dont want to :|

Do you live near your friends?

SADLY, NO

Love is letting go of Fear.

how does she know that you really really truly love her!?

HMM I'm not really liking my layout right now but i really can't be bothered to change it
even though i have all the time on my hands, at least it would be more productive than just facebooking all day or watching TV. Its not my fault that they keep playing all these Csi series which are so enjoyable to watch :D

HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME.

you know, if i had to wish for one thing right now.. just one thing! it would probably be a time machine ..

to go back to the past and enjoy those 'good times" with family&friends... and to listen to all the good songs that actually had MEANINGS. And of course go to the future to see who I'm married to. I'm just so curious about who am i going to end up with in EVERYTHING! and that feeling is soo annoying :|

RANDOM MUCH!?

just let me BE.

You know what REALLY pisses me off ?

people.

i like big butts and i dont know WHY!

* i be on the hotline like err 'day.

smile for the camera now *click *click *click

* this city is full of nuts *

I've been watching a whole lotta csi:Miami - and I'm lovin it :]

I just wana be IN IT

Sabrina's sleeping over today and I'm just waiting for her arrival-so once again boredom is attacking-BADLY!

moms got be a new pair of black sandals and they are very incredible*shida's goin be jealous!

lets view horoscope of "the day" :D

Jan 20-Feb 18 Aquarius January 11, 2010 All those rumors about your sign being cold, aloof and detached? Untrue. Totally untrue. The stuff about you being objective, impartial and incapable of prejudice? Absolutely true. You're about to prove all that and more to anyone who's willing to listen, and even to some who won't be. You're in the mood for romance. And while your style of wooing doesn't usually involve a Hallmark card or a dozen roses, whoever you're working your magic on won't soon forget it.

:D

-partner let me upgrade youhh-

Thought i couldn't breathe without you ,

but I'm inhalin

You thought i couldn't see without you,

perfect vision

You thought i couldn't last without you,

but I'm lastin

AcTiOn SpEaKs LoUdEr ThAn WoRdS...

come get SOME!

*my heart it pounds, yeah you got me.

rah rah ah ah ah

roma, ro ma ma

ga ga ohh la la

WANT YOUR BAD ROMANCE

it's been a few days since i touched this! so i have a few to say!

first of all i got my allowance so i spend it on a little bit of these :

I bought five different pretty colors from Elianto!

pink.black.red.blue.peach

i'll go back again and get the purple :]

so Sabrina influence me on these, i used to hate wearing shoes!

they had different colors! they had pink and dark blue! pweettyyy!

i went shopping with my sista's yesterday and i was suppose to get kim something BUT i forgot! but im going shopping with mum later so hopefully i don't forget this time!

i gotta chiao now! so i'll BLOG soon! promise :]

* BE REAL OR BE GONE

seriously now days some people are up on my LAST nerves! i mean seriously! wth! if u make a promise godamn KEEP IT! you freekin SWORE!

And if it's the first time you breaking that godamn "promise" i totally understand!

but the third time! that's just so annoying, pissing and seriously F***ed up.

-that's all for now!

i won't be blogging anytime soon!

* ohmagawsh!

no time to think.

*scream me a love song

quote;

A WISE GIRL

KISSES BUT DOES'NT LOVE

LISTENS BUT DOES'NT BELIEVE

AND LEAVES BE FORE SHE IS LEFT

-MARILY MONROE

*don't get me started

*bring that on, you know what i mean

*you wana get in my world , get lost in it <3